So I’m writing this entry on limited sleep. Yeah yeah, I’m a working mom with a high pressure job and a toddler and all that other crap. However, apparently it’s not enough to lay awake at night thinking about spreadsheets, what I’m going to say at upcoming meetings, how data ties in to a client’s overall set up, whether my 17 month old is too cold with the fan on, whether she has enough diapers at daycare, what we have to eat for dinner the next evening, whether my co-worker took something I said as a complaint when I was really complimenting her, whether the shower curtain I want is going to sell out before I can fit the purchase into our budget and how I’m going to fit any tans and work outs into my week before the weekend (because let’s face it, I’m not working out on the weekend so if it doesn’t happen Mon – Fri, I have to wait until next week). Oh and what ever happened to that Goo Goo Cluster ice cream they used to sell at Albertson’s? That was sooooo good. Awwww, remember Albertson’s? I loved that store. Oh oh… what was the name of the other place in my home town that started with an “A”? The place where I ran over Karen Carpenter’s foot with my stroller when I was 2? Alpha Beta! That’s righhhhhhhht. Hmmmm, I had that other Carpenter’s CD and I haven’t been able to find it. I swear we need to get our computer fixed so I can get ITunes back….
Nope, that endless thought process keeping me up for 90 mins – 3 hours at least 3 times per week just wasn’t enough to exhaust me. I had to start watching “I Survived”. Have you watched this shit yet? It’s quite a gripping program. For those of you who haven’t watched it yet, it airs on the Bio channel on Sunday nights and it usually consists of 3+ people each speaking to the camera about a harrowing experience that nearly killed them, and should have. It’s a very interesting, diverse selection of individuals and you can’t help but get sucked right in to each story. The experiences that bring these people near death range from abductions, rapes, shootings and stabbings to natural disasters, bridge collapses and boat wrecks. It’s addicting and absolutely terrifying! Now that I’ve propped the show (much deserved), I have to say that you must be extremely careful about choosing to watch.
Before I was a mother, I used to hear other mothers talk about how since they had babies they could no longer watch scary movies. I used to roll my eyes and think “Of course, because EVERYTHING is about YOU and your kid, isn’t it?” I wondered if I would be annoying like them and think that way after becoming a mom, because horror films are just part of my life. While I have thankfully NOT found my beloved horror films to be unbearable now that I’m a mother, crime documentaries terrify the hell out of me. They always have, but “I Survived” brings it to another level. I’ve always thought of myself as a very cautious person. I walk with my head up in parking lots, I don’t park next to vans, I don’t answer the door if I’m home alone or if I don’t know the person, I don’t give out my zip code or phone# at cash registers (why do they need that all the time anyway??? Annoysballs) and I rarely go out alone after dark. After watching this show I no longer think I’m so smart and cautious. I spend every night after a new episode waking up every hour or so in this terrified dream haze, wondering if all the windows are locked, checking to make sure my kid is still in her room and my husband is still breathing. Do I have to go to the stupid bathroom or can I hold it? What if they’re waiting for me to get up so they can hit me with a surprise attack on my way out of the bathroom? Ugh, and I thought “Dateline” was bad.
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